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ANOTHER BLAST FROM THE PAST (Faster than the bullet train)
"The Morning Train 2: Ang Pagbabalik ng mga Balbon"


Syet na to.

Kung may past na dumating sa buhay ko nung nakaraan, merong mas matindi.
Sa web ko nakuha ang panibagong nakapag-pa-emote ng gabi ko.

When realities haunt you, talagang todo-todo kung sumapak at gumimbal ng nananahimik mong life ever!

Anu-ano ba ang realities na napagtantu ko lately?

1. Si 1st balbon aka J****e. Status: May baby na, Yay! At alam kong straight siya, pero siya ang dahilan kung bakit naging berde ang lahat sa akin.

2. Ang dati kong kaaway na tawagin na lang natin sa pangalang "Volleyball Varsity Player" aka VVP in short, friends na kami ngayon. Kwento ko details later.

3. Ang lalaki sa picture below, yung may dalang bata. YES, may bata siyang dala. Ang pruweba na may anak na siya. NAMPOOTAH..

Bakit ako nag-eemote?

Napansin ko lang na ang mga lalaki sa buhay ko ay mga nagsipag-balik loob sa kanilang tunay na instincts: ang tumira ng kipay, although si J****e ay certified straight. Lahat sila may offsprings na. Haaaaay.

When I was in First Year college, I met this guy from the other section. His name is S**, let's call him Carpet. Isa siyang foreign student from Iran (that explains the "Carpet"..ahahay! Persian Carpet!) Unang kita ko pa lang sa kanya, nabihag na niya ang puso ko, pa-mhin pa ang style ko nun, medyo tsaka pa ako nun because of the katabaan and everything. No one talks to him, so I decided to make my career move towards him. My gosh, he's very Carlos Agassi during that time, at siya ang una kong nakilalang pinaka-mabangong person from Middle East. Well, we ended up as close buddies. I fell in love with this guy, and everything is just mutual, kasi nga he hates gays, pero nalaman ko na hate lang niya ang mga drag queen, and gays doesn't have to be like that, they should have this respected aura always. I don't know why we became very close, we always eat together and stay in his place all the time, we even sleep together, as in SLEEP lang (sabi ko sa niyo kaya kong magtimpi, siya rin naman, although at times he provokes me to meet his very famous snake..we always talk about that snake, pero ako afraid, hindi ako kumakagat) CONSERVATIVE AKO NOON oy! Hanggang ganun lang.

Dumating ang panahon na he has to leave Manila to take up his passion (Dentistry) in Baguio. Megastar and Diamond Star Back to Back Drama Specials combined ang emote ko noon. So we chat at times, minsan sugod ako sa Baguio (during that time wala pa kaming house dun) to meet him and stay for a day.

Then one day, I met this girl. Actually, Persian Carpet introduced me to VVP. All eyes ako sa kanya, yung gut feeling na iba, yung intuitions and everything. Duda na ako. Until I learned that they live on the same roof. What's worse is she came "coincidentally" from my school. She's A Varsity Player in our school's volleyball team. She knows who I am! Sabi niya lagi daw niya akong nakikita sa school gym with Persian Carpet.

Okay?! So ganun, punta kami sa Session Road, sa may McDo (fastfood lover pa ko nun) and ate dinner. During our stay there, hinarot ng konti ni Carpet, asaran and everything. Siguro naiimbey na si VVP so attack din siya kay Carpet. Ayun, kumakain ako, sila na ang nagharutan. Pakshet talaga nung time yun. So after my dinner, maimbyerna na ako and left for the hotel. Announce ako na pagod na ako and need rest para makauwi ng maaga sa Manila. So Bye na ang drama ko.

The next day Carpet was looking for me. What he didn't know was I went home earlier than the time I declared. Siyempre, nakaramdam na ako. Alam ko na. ALAM NA! So mega cry me a river ako sa bus.

He called me up after 2 days. Ask niya drama ko bakit ako uwi aga ng walang official press release. Sabi ko na lang emergency kaya bumaba agad ako. Di na ako nagparamdam sa kanya.

Several weeks later, I learned na nanggugulo siya (si VVP) sa friend kong si Mimi. Parang nang-aaway siya or something. Dun ko na nalaman at na-confirm na SILA na. HURT HURT HURT!

Tahimik na lang ako, til one day, VVP texted me. Ano ginawa ko? I declared war. Carpet even asked me to say sorry, but my pride, my precious pride, di ko ginawa.

2 years passed, bumalik na si Carpet sa Manila. Well, we made up na rin and naging active ulit ang friendship namin. He told me na wala na sila ni VVP for a long time. She was being an asshole daw.

"Naaalala ko ang mga gabing, nakahiga sa ilalim kalawakan.." -'Jeepney' ng Spongecola

One night, Carpet invited me for a house party, in his place somewhere in Pasig.

Kaming lahat ng mga Persian friends niya ay nagpa-impluwensya kay Jose Cuervo. Hindi ako nakaligtas sa mga balbon... sa kanilang pang-aasar: my hairless legs, my kagagahan's and everything. Si Carpet, stayed on my side, at ipinagtanggol pa rin naman ako kahit papano. Kung hindi ako pinigilan ni Carpet, kinain ko lahat na ang mga Carlos Agassi sa loob ng bahay niya, haaaay. Powerful ata ako!

Masyado nang late para umuwi nun so I stayed. Yung ibang naiwan na friends niya natulog sa itaas. We stayed downstairs. Literally, downstairs and waited for the sun to shine.

"Naaalala ko ang mga gabing, nakahiga sa ilalim ng hagdanan.."- to the tune of 'Jeepney'

Doon ko nakilala si Olive Oil habang kami'y nakahiga sa ilalim ng hagdanan.

Nakilala ko rin si Snake.

Tama na

Hanggang dito na lang..

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That is the last night that I ever laid eyes on Carpet, the night that became memorable to both of us.

We still have contact during those times.

Summer 2004 (the very reason why my previous post "the sunset picture" was very memorable to me, produkto yun ng emote emote ko sa La Union)

I received a text message from Manila.

"This is VVP, Carpet's wife. Have you seen him? Do you still have contact to each other?...we now have a son..."

Time stopped.

Breathe..

Pindot. Contacts. Pindot. Call.

I called him up immediately and confronted him thru phone. Hindi daw totoo ang lahat. Psycho daw si VVP. The very reason why he left VVP. After a very long conversation, he asked me not to speak to her again. Ever! He told me she's dangerous blah blah blah. I believed him.

Months passed and the last time we talked to each other was September 2004.

I have no idea where he went. Basta nag-ala guerilla na siya. Nowhere in sight na ang drama niya.

So si VVP nangulit lang ng nangulit. Hindi ko pinansin, paano nga nag-away kami. Pinag-awayan namin si Carpet na unangg naging akin. Hanggang sa let go na ako sa pride ko. I texted her. Apologized and all.

We made up and patched some things finally, after several years of silent war.

She pulled something frm her purse. The Proof.

There I saw their wedding pictures, along with the Baptismal day of their baby, and some random pics of Carpet and his baby to VVP.

OUCH!


Nag-let go na ako kay Carpet finally. After more than 3 years.

Then, nabuo ang galit ko kay Carpet. He abandoned VVP and his kid for over a year now. That info fucked my mind, I should have believed VVP in the first place, may nagawa sana ako to save her and her kid from from being abandoned. Carpet got herself a mistress.

Damn you Carpet!

Because of him, I will carry this guilt for the rest of my life.

I made up with VVP, and said all the apologies.

Too late

*Sigh

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Feel ko tuloy ngayon naging mistress din ako.

Basta akin na lang yun...

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